my daily reflections…

at times, these deep, hidden morbid reflections appear in my mind. the more time i have in recovery, it seems, the more these things crop up. i truly need to use the faith i have in my HP to release these thoughts. sometimes i even need to inventory them and find out their root causes so that i may take positive affirmative action on them. talk with others; my sponsor, friends in recovery, and my HP help me get past these thoughts. i aint gotta let these memories rule my today. ive done the work to make amends for them. i cannot change the past, however, i can change my reactions to em when they, come up from nowhere. i have to remember ive been forgiven and have forgiven myself for em. i reckon im blessed i can remember these events so i can apply what ive learned through recovery to employ solutions that truly work so i may continue to move forward, past em. i get to sort em out with a clear mind and exercise the spiritual principles which have given me so much life. i aint ever gotta be that person again. 1 day @ a time...