my daily reflections…

yes, it always seemed that others had caused my problems. gettin down ‘n dirty, lookin at what the exact root causes of the problems i have are, is an essential piece of fixin the relationships i hold with others! in the end i thought i drank because thats what i did, drink. i did coz i was happy or sad, it didnt matter, my emotional state of mind was so filled with chaos. i understand today, alcohol, only made it worse. i needed to go far beyond the lil instances superficially wrong with me; usin the spiritual principles of recovery, to help me finger out that it was me that caused the emotional upheaval in my life. i learned that i was the 1 who controlled my emotional state of mind, not everybody else. today im grateful fer the realization of this simple, yet elusive, idea. ive learned, with the help of my sponsor, a calm, thoughtful reflection, upon personal relations, i get to deepen my insight. today i get to use the occurrences from the past, which have been learned from this great program, to move throughout the day with the knowledge that i control my own emotional destiny. through the continued examination of my personal relations, with every bit of information about myself ive found, and as clear an understandin of my fundamental difficulties, i get to find the flaws which sometimes are responsible for my whole pattern of my life then, and today. 1 day @ a time...