my daily reflections…

im still facin a long time of reconstruction ahead. i started my alcoholic journey at the age of 13, and finally had enough at the age of 37. for 24 years my alcoholism deepened its roots well within me. today, i am 18 yrs and 140 days from my last drink. as of today, i lived a life of active alcoholism 2,046 days more than ive been sober, and in recovery. ive more practicin to do before i become sober, and in recovery, as long as i practiced the days of doin my dirt. sure, ive surrendered, accepted, learned to tolerate, learned some honesty, formed a relationship with my HP, made my lists, done my amends, and continue to practice the latter steps in my life on a daily basis, however that doesnt mean my alcoholic way of thinkin is gone. i still have it, it still continues to grow, even as it has lessened as ive practice the 12 spiritual principles of recovery. i must be ever vigilant in keepin it at bay by practicin and livin the steps each day. ive heard it said in the rooms my alcoholism is a subtle foe. ive seen it sneak attack trusted friends in recovery, whove had long term quality recovery, and take them fer a ride. i understand today, if i continue to be on guard fer my alcoholism in my weakest moments, and even my strongest, continue to be willin to ask Him to allow His will to be done in my life, i stand a fightin chance to grow my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual life. 1 day @ a time...