my daily reflections…

i tried everythin i could to beat my alcoholism while i was out doin my dirt and none of it was with a half measure. i worked every angle, every nook and cranny, to death, to find a way to continue to drink like i wanted to. with that in mind, rememberin all those attempts, i cannot find an excuse not to do the same with my recovery. idk bout ya’ll, but i whooped the fuck outta my own ass tryin to keep drinkin and gettin high. the spiritual principle of honesty is somethin i must employ when i start to thinkin i can get by easy without diggin into recovery to help me get past stinkin thinkin. it doesnt mean i have to exhaust myself, it just means that i can stop for a min, use patience, pray, meditate, ask others, and take a break til an answer comes. unless it is a pressin issue that i cant avoid, takin a break to do these things is healthy for me. i dont postpone, evade, or procrastinate, i move forward with life until i have the comfort and aid i feel i need. when i ask for His protection and care with complete abandon, my HP always provides. and doesnt a measure of humility come to me when i find im strugglin with somethin. i get to learn i dont know all the answers as i once thought i did. embracin a healthy emotional, psychological, and spiritual lifestyle involves not just sayin prayers but also puttin into action the answers i receive. embracin a healthy, recoverin, lifestyle, means that i appreciate and use what i have been given to move forward with all i have, even if it means i may fail. recovery provides me with a new vision of my life and an opportunity to restore the value and purpose of livin for me. when i look around at all the friendships i have developed in my recovery, i have no reason to sit or lay down and not try to work hard at solvin my personal problems. the people i know have been where i am at any given moment and will help me if i humble myself and ask. today, as i have peace of mind, i get to do the best i can to make my recovery work for me. my HP, recovery, and the fellowship are there for me so i aint gotta live my recovery with half measures. 1 day @ a time...