my daily reflections…

i like that they use the word vigilance here, what it means fer me is the action or state of keepin careful watch fer possible danger or difficulties. i have to watch the things i do and learn from those experiences past or present. i have to be aware of feelins that may overcome me and do the right action to be successful over em. i cant just say im an alcoholic and then throw caution to the wind. i have to be ever mindful of what i used to become when i drank, and even more so today, several years without one. i am an alcoholic; there are no two ways about it. when i drink i am powerless and unmanageability rules my life, i hurt others and myself. i have watched others who have said that they are alcoholic go back to drinkin and if they are able to come back, they always tell me the same story, "it doesnt get any better." i must take heed to their experience and my own. i must ask my HP to help in times of rough goin so i do not try to start thinkin alcohol will be different today or change how it used to be. 1 day @ a time...