my daily reflections…

truly lookin within me was somethin i had always feared before my recovery began. when i would attempt to do it, i would see things about me i didnt like and quickly close the door. it wasnt until i was able to understand the spiritual principles this thing we do teaches and how they can help me, i was able to fully concede, and look at me fer me. with as much faith in my HP as i could muster, that He would take this journey within alongside me, i am finally able to take this look. the shit i feared to look at before, was still there. like the demon possessed regan macneil from the exorcist, spinnin their heads, and projectile pukin up green bile all over me. without faith He was there, i would have never been able to use the courage He provided, to see me. all i could ever do was continue to run away, only graspin fer the shit i thought i wanted in life, neglectin all or any real need. today keepin the faith i have in Him i am able to look at and be joel. i get to do as thorough as possible a house cleanin within, let my selfish ways go, and move further through life better than ever before, usin what ive learned about myself to help others as much as possible. 1 day @ a time...