my daily reflections…

as i sat around the step house in my early days of sobriety (a word chosen carefully), i was able to watch how people who had quality recovery were actin. they didnt walk around angry, pissed off, full of fear and rage. this was how i moved about every day because i couldnt drink anymore, why werent they? the one i was listenin to the most at this time was my sponsor; he was one of those "PIGS" as i learned they were called later by a dear friend. he always seemed to be doin well; this fer me was the attraction the readin suggested. i wanted those same feelins within me, not the guilt, jealousy, or remorse that accompanied those feelins of anger, fear, and rage. i asked him how i could get the inner happiness they all seemed to walk around with, he simply told me to become willin, honest, and open minded, then proceeded to guide me through the steps. 1 day @ a time...