my daily reflections…

i dont always feel like i am winnin, the fact is, i dont always win. its really easy fer me to take my will back and start relyin on people to help me make it through tough times. i try to play God and it may seem as if i am makin head way, but what usually happens is i end up hurtin others or myself. i have to try to quickly remember what has gotten me this far in recovery. did i rely on self to make it this far? as i look back, i see the path i have walked, and if im honest enough, i see the faith i have had in my HP is what has helped me to progress. this usually means i have to stop relyin on me and put my faith back where it belongs, in my HP. i may not particularly like the outcome it produces, but i understand today, if i had continued on with my want, or relied on people, places, or material things, the outcome could have been much worse. so back to relyin upon His love, grace, and forgiveness i go, this is the true determination as to if i am winnin or losin. 1 day @ a time...