my daily reflections…

sobriety was a nice beginnin to stoppin the chaos goin on outside of me. it seemed, with a clear head i had more time to think. and that was were mere sobriety ended as a means of peace. loneliness and desperation soon filled my mind leadin straight to guilt, remorse, self-pity, and an even worse despair within. without alcohol to take me away from me, i needed to find a way to battle the demons that were wagin a war against me within. it became apparent if i wanted to continue to feel the peace mere sobriety brought, i had to do somethin to help me mediate an existence without the confusion and frustration brought without my crux. as i watched others and listened in meetins, people told of the peace they had found through the process of the 12 steps. even as i had found a foundation of sobriety to stand on, it was weak, and i needed somethin stronger as it crumbled around me. my trek into a new and different way of life began as i admitted my powerlessness, and the unmanageability of my emotional bein. 1 day @ a time...