my daily reflections…

i remember comin into the rooms and thinkin how could i be powerless; how could my life be unmanageable. as i stayed sober and listened and learned, i began to understand what powerlessness and unmanageability were. it came down to learnin an understandin of self-honesty first. i had been so used to story tellin myself that i believed the storys. my ego had built a pride which would not allow me to see the truths about myself or the truths about my life. fer a long time i was able to overcome the falsehoods i created and make my life work fer me. unfortunately, when it all came to an end, it all came crashin down upon me. i needed the authenticity of others, who had come in before me, to help me see how their inaptitude and unruliness had affected em. when they would do this, i was able to mentally absorb the emotions they shared and assimilate em to my story/life. without this i couldve never recognized, digested, or applied how powerlessness and unmanageability had been a factor in my life as well. i didnt want to remain blocked by ego or pride, not understandin the solution to my problem as i started to honestly understand, as best as i could, how powerlessness, and unmanageability had been destroyin my life. 1 day @ a time...