my daily reflections…

the further away from my last drink i grew, the less i had the delusional thoughts that used to crowd my head creatin irrational behavior and psychological upheaval. not actin on those uneven emotions helped to allow me to see how my alcoholism had always steered me toward a drink. surely i was still a boy whistlin in the dark at that point in my recovery, but there was a clear sense of sanity that had come. i was learnin how to use what i was seein in others, i was startin to believe what i was seein in others, and i was startin to work toward a better way of life without alcohol. today, many days away from that last drink, ive grown behaviorally, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. sanity has helped me use my mental capability to transform away from the many selfish and self-centered attitudes i used to carry. i get to use different solutions to problems that used to baffle me. i aint gonna try to story tell ya by tellin ya i dont think about drinkin today, cause sometimes, i do. its just today, i get to use healthier emotional solutions to move away from those fleetin thoughts of a drink that would have me behavin irrationally back in the days of doin my dirt. 1 day @ a time...