my daily reflections…

i cannot even try to story tell ya’ll today, even after i came into the rooms, determined to NEVER drink again, i still wondered if recovery could, or would, work fer me, or if i could make it stayin sober. sho nuff in my early recovery there was some romancin the drink i contemplated. what the turn toward transformation was, was the exercises of step 4 through 9. if i was to be anythin close to honest with myself, the workin of those particular steps showed me just how i had become an alcoholic and where i would be headed if i were to ever go back to doin my dirt. with those memories in mind, there is no doubt of my conviction and dedication to my sobriety today; and even more so, my recovery from alcoholism. others, dear friends ive met in the rooms, have shown me the lethality of goin back to doin my dirt. i reckon the gratitude i have, can be shown to em, to others around me, and to myself, needs to be my willingness to do what ev it takes to remain sober, and practicin my program of recovery. 1 day @ a time...