my daily reflections…

it is only by acceptin and solvin my personal problems that i was able to begin to get right with myself, with the world about me, and with my HP. with the hope i was given in my early recovery by those who had come before me, i was able to begin to open my mind to concepts that i thought werent worthy of my attention. it meant that i was gonna have to stop thinkin the way i had all my life. it meant that i was gonna have to start doin things i had never done before. but gettin there took time. i had to learn how to think and how to behave. i had to gain an understandin of what these new concepts meant, and most importantly what they would mean to me later on. i had told myself when i moved into the halfway house i was livin in that i was either gonna do this shit or i wasnt. i had a choice to make and decision to act upon. with that early life experience i have used those same ideas throughout my recovery to get what i have today. i have found that awareness of who and what i am at any given moment in time helps me toward livin the keys of the right principles and attitudes recovery sets forward. when i do what i normally wouldnt, sometimes fightin my spiritual malady, but rather livin by right action, the spiritual principles of recovery, i get to feel the fundamentals of livin the commitment i made in my early recovery. i have gotten over my obsession with alcohol, but sometimes still struggle with my obsession of self-will. when i sense my spiritual malady, it is usually best i do the exact opposite of what it wants. this is the essence of the commitment i made to myself, not doin or sayin what i normally would, but rather doin what i seen those in my early recovery doin. when i am still and commune with God, i learn patience, humility, and peace of mind. today i accept the responsibility of what i believe reflects the God i believe in. i live the gift of courage the program teaches me. when i do i get to meet the new day, to handle whatever confronts me. and peace becomes coupled with courage. i could have never imagined that the greatest achievement of my life would be peace of mind. 1 day @ a time...