my daily reflections…

i reckon i aint one of those that walked into the rooms and was cured of all the personal problems i have. now, i can say i use different solutions today than i did in the past days of doin my dirt. but i cant say that i dont still suffer from the many of the natural human emotions that i did back before my recovery began. acceptin my humanness is an ongoin journey for me. today i still work at rebuildin the relationships i lost, i am able to handle my basic human emotional natures better, there are times i still can struggle with misery or depression, i dont have to find a job every other week, i keep my jobs until i am ready to move on, i am useful and effective, though i still have fears, i overcome them, and today i can be of real help to another. i have to face truths about my recovery, just because i am in it, and practice it daily, i am not wiped clean as snow. my recovery is a process that evolves and the journey i am on changes daily. as stated, prior, today i handle the personal problems i am faced with usin the spiritual principles of recovery. i didnt know that i was the problem before my recovery began, but since it has started, havin gained enough humility to become honest, willin, and open-minded, i have learned to sense things when i start to go beyond what i feel my HP would have me be. i dont know everything there is to know about recovery and sometimes make mistakes that dont follow what ive learned is the recovery way. but i am able to see these things when i take the time to inventory my day. i can then use this lifetime process to solve the problems i may have created. the blessin of recovery for me is that i am open to receive Gods blessins and willin to relinquish my hold on material things so i may receive them back from my HP. the process of recovery has become a habit for me as i have learned to bring attention to each moment. i get to notice the thoughts that come and go as i go about my everyday life. and ive began to be aware enough to recognize negative thoughts and how they affect me. i still have a long way to go and a lot to learn, all i need to do is make progress, i aint gotta reinvent the wheel. today my motives arent to feel superior by pullin another or myself down. ive learned that bitchin about shit is not an action step. when im into self, i get to discover my true motives. with the courage gained, personal inventory isnt somethin i need to fear, it is somethin that helps me grow into a better person. 1 day @ a time...