my daily reflections…

im thankful for the progress i have made in my recovery. even as i am, there are times i can let my mouth override my ass. i reckon the fact that i can identify this today means that i have made progress usin the principles of recovery. today i have the advantage of a better understandin of my personality problems. when in the past i could not recognize my shortcomins, takin em as just the way they are, today i have an opportunity to learn from them and grow forward away from em. when i follow the guides to progress the 12 steps have taught me, i aint gotta go back and clean up my messes. and when i do have to go back and clean up my messes, they arent as bad as before my recovery began. dont mean i dont make messes, cause i do, its just today i have a different way of dealin with em. i reckon this is where i get to see the humility the steps teach me into, happen in my life. i have been taught an answer to loneliness and fear, which is calm faith in the goodness and purpose of my HP. i get to be grateful, humble, calm, and lovin to all people, instead of full of joel, takin without regard anothers emotions or property. my job in recovery today is to be guided by healthy, rightful intuition, not self-willed intuition. it means that i be aware of my feelins, bein able to appropriately express love, fear, and anger. this is due to wantin to live the best for today, livin my spiritual awakenin. as long as im concentratin on todays activities, there wont be room in my mind for worryin about shit i aint got any business worryin bout. when i practice humility, i get to get out of the self-pity act and live for right now. when i fail to recognize my insecurities, i dont get to turn em over so i can humbly form true partnerships with my HP, myself, and other people around me. when i lean too heavily on others, and even myself, castin out incessant demands, sooner or later, they or i, fail me, for they and i, are human. however, when i practice humility in its truest form, my HP gives me clarity and peace of mind, so my insecurities do not have room to grow and fester. this is the best progress for right now. 1 day @ a time...