my daily reflections…

i dont get beat up near as much today as i used to. and i dont mean in the physical sense. what im talkin about is the emotional or psychological sense. i still do shit i wish id thought a lil more on, but the consequences i face from doin or sayin somethin aint nowhere near like they used to be. i talk and act far different than i ever did. so, the force feedin of humble pie typically aint a whole 18” diameter pie. its usually a small piece today cause im still human and i still make mistakes. and truth be said, im cool with gettin a servin of humble pie cause when i do, it usually means im startin to use my self-will in ways that show my ass and self-righteous self-centeredness. i reckon its my HPs way of helpin me keep humble, so i know i aint in charge. recovery has taught me how to be responsible and given me the ability to respond to life, which requires a certain management of my life. life teaches me that there are some things i can do and some things i should not do. some of the behaviors i have are acceptable, and some, if left untreated, can destroy my life, or the life of another. recovery has taught me that the ones i did before my recovery were the ones that were destroyin my life. when i remain humble and seek to manage my life in a spiritual manner i aint gotta go through the mental sufferin, the loneliness, the feelins of inferiority, the lyin, or the remorse that every alcoholic understands. i get to achieve peace of mind. usin humility to learn and grow, i get to make choices that promote healthy manageability of my life. when i pray for patience, i allow myself to realign with my values and be entirely present. humility keeps me from doin the rushin i used to do that has gotten me in trouble. i get to take moments in my day to take a break and pray and meditate, as i listen intently, He speaks to me, sometimes through other people. as i continue to take personal inventory and continue to set right any new mistakes as i go along, i get to practice humility and spirituality with those around me so i may grow in understandin and effectiveness. its simple man, when i remain aware, i get the nourishin ingredient of humbleness, i get to give it, so i may grow in it. i only get a harvest when i plant somethin. 1 day @ a time...