my daily reflections…

peace of mind is a beautiful gift. many times, i sit in meetins or hang around others and watch em. though they may be sittin in a still place, i can feel the energy pourin out of em. i reckon its cause i used to know that energy too, all too well. and it aint da kinda energy that shouts spirituality or emotional balance or health, its the energy that just screams outward from within without even sayin a word. those are the times i get to gratefully realize the priceless gifts of my recovery. aint no nervous foot tappin, aint no mumblin to myself, aint no angered or frustrated aura, aint no arms folded tryin to hold shit in or block people out, aint none of that stuff. its a feelin within that everythin is just gonna be ok. no worried look in my eyes, no frown or scowl upon my lips, no furrowed eyebrows, or eyes wide shut, just a found peace within that allows me to keep bright eyed and a smile upon my face. aint gotta worry bout da cops bustin through the door, or keepin my back to da wall so i can watch who is comin and goin, just a calm sit with friends over a cup of coffee. aint no worry bout tomorrow, or fear of yesterday, just a simple smile with an openness of heart toward all i encounter. peace of mind! i can recall times in my recovery when shit has gone awry, and i didnt know what to do next, but somehow, the shit ive learned in recovery told me to just be still, let Him handle it. and wouldnt ya know, by just merely doin my part, the next thing that happened was the next right thing. what a priceless gift! havin the mindfulness to suspend my ego is a delicate, ongoin dance, not a onetime occurrence. it is why mindfulness is the ability within me to suspend my ego so i may see how best to apply my mind and behavioral conduct for the greatest good, the good of serenity. as i examine my range of available choices, its there i usually find, its ok not to know. the miracle of the program addresses the art of the possible, buildin on my own possibilities. when i live with the absence of the intent to deceive, i get to know peace of mind. 1 day @ a time...