my daily reflections…

i have a purdy good idea where i would be today if those who came to the rooms before me would have neglected my want to get what they had. to be clear, if lucky, i would have been killed, or killed myself. if not so lucky i would have ended up in prison doin a life bit/piece. i reckon those who did not neglect my want to get what they had understood the unremittin danger they faced in their lives or to their sanity if they werent willin to share their e.s.h. with me. when i came in, i was sufferin, bad. they, with their intuitive sense, seen the sufferin i showed on my face, through my words, and behavior. as i walked in, self-broken, self-defeated, hopeless, with unmanageability, and desperation, they were responsible in their own programs of recovery; they outstretched their hands toward me willin to help me. it was an early lesson in what i must do if i dont want to face the relentless danger of throwin my life to the hound of the baskervilles or risk the insanity of the depths of my mind steeped in alcoholism. today, with much time practicin the spiritual principles of recovery as best as i can, it is my responsibility to do as they taught me, outstretch my hand for those who are still sick and sufferin. ive learned through this process that i cannot be all to all who come to me. but i can be for myself, with the help of my HP and others, not i alone. if in doin so, another sees the growth, or hears the growth from my words usin humility as a guide, then maybe, just maybe, if only i am to help 1 throughout my entire life, then i reckon ive done what i perceive my HP would have me. as i move forward in recovery, understandin the knowledge that my life is solely my own, holdin my life in trust for my HP, i get to live another day humbly helpin another as i grow in spirituality with them. i get to share with em how ive been blessed to gain experience from my mistakes, so maybe they aint got to, or can possibly learn from em. im blessed today with an ability to create a life successfully handlin conflicts with friends or strangers; growin in confidence regardin my role as a parent, worker, or friend; communicatin frequently with my HP, and usin it as a tool that can enhance my sense of wellbein throughout every moment of the twenty-four hours that lie ahead, by sharin that with others. my HP and i are in partnership in the outcomes of my life. i know how to fulfill my part, and i can trust God to fulfill Gods part. givin that with a show to those who are sick isnt a burden, it is a blessin. for me sobriety without action is fantasy, in order to recover i have to uncover by leavin everythin to God. 1 day @ a time...