my daily reflections…

its been my experience that i will never graduate from recovery. i will never be able to stop livin toward the change it provides me in my life. i tried that method and it did not work, my self-will is too strong. the only way i can keep what i have been gifted is to continue to practice recovery in my life every day, less i drink or drug once more. willingness has been a means toward a life that is acceptin of self-success and self-failure for me. the simplest solution i have for my alcoholism and addiction, is to never let myself think that one drink or drug will help me in any situation i face. it may give release to immediate boredom or care, but there will be a time when i begin to think i can outsmart my alcoholism with overthinkin again. if i got away with it once, maybe i can get away with it again. so, as i continue to try to put my life back together again, i must continue to do what brought the peace of mind and serenity i live with today. this means, for me, to continue to become, even more, willin to face the shit life throws at me out of the clearest blue skies. it means that each day i continue to start my day by properly preparin to live it with mornin readins, prayer, and meditation. it means that i endeavor to make myself ready for the harvest which God has planted in my heart. and the simple fact remains that i cannot do this alone, as i once thought in the days of doin my dirt. i need the help of God, recovery, and trusted friends in recovery. with this team of overseers and rightful guidance from them, i get the hope, courage, and strength to continue to live my freedom. the more i seek to live the spiritual life, the more i realize it is based upon a connection to others. even as He has already given that which i may try to bargain for to assist me along the road to recovery and freedom, i still must do my part with honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness. as long as it may take and as hard as it may be, i need to accept the incredible fact that the prize is already won, and all i need to do is open up and receive it. as i remain calm and willin, i get to continue to receive His blessins. 1 day @ a time...