my daily reflections…

i never had much a thought about listenin to others. let alone God. i might listen for a minute, but usually found fault or error in what i heard and immediately shut down hearin anythin else. recovery has taught me the failure of a closed mind. it has taught me that if i want to live with reason that i must be open-minded to concepts that arent of my own conception. ive learned that there is a need for me to have an HP. as ive practiced what ive learned i have found that there is good reason to have and keep an open mind, especially when it comes to any spiritual kind of life i may want to live. i always thought the inner voice that told me right or wrong was just me, but ive experienced that it isnt always me. there is this thing within, deep within, that when i close my mind to selfishness and self-centered righteousness, is God. within the penetralia of my bein is the presence of my HP. it is a voice that speaks to me and helps me to make the right decisions when i take the time to stop and listen. this inner consciousness helps me to clearly think and act in ways that, in the past, were unbecomin of me. ive learned to listen and rely upon this conscience because it offers me strength when i am week, courage when im feelin cowardice, and confidence when im feelin clueless. today when i feel inadequate in the goins on of my life, all i have to do is pray and listen for His guidance. when i cant hear it, many times i must get with trusted friends in recovery to hear His direction come through them. ive come to the belief that spirituality tells me who i am when i live it focused, purposefully, and with appreciation. it gives me the profound spiritual understandin of Gods love for me when i seek it. oftentimes within it i find the face of God in His creation around me, from within. i learn to trust solutions, rather than be victimized by problems. i cannot talk of tolerance and remain intolerant of myself just because i make a mistake while livin the spirituality recovery offers. its why i need that inner voice. if i want to continue to live the change ive found from within, i must continue to surrender, remain humble and willing, use acceptance, and trust in what i feel from within. 1 day @ a time...