my daily reflections…

there are times i am not always as spiritual as i would like to be. there are times i get in the way of the growth and progress i have made. ive been taught through recovery that i must be aware as much as i can be of my thinkin, behaviors, and actions, i have and do. this whole lifestyle change isnt somethin that is only on 1 hour a week like my fave tv show. it isnt somethin that i clock into from 6am-2pm. it is a way of life, that though forgivin, an attempt must be made to live by it structure if i want to receive its beautiful, life fulfillin and sustainin, rewards. i must, to use a term a different way, but with the same endeavor, “carry the message” in all of my affairs. i cannot expect another to offer me love and tolerance if i am unwillin to give it first. bein unwillin to give it first was the way of life i lived before my recovery began and look where the fuck that got me back then. today i want to be forgiven and loved, so, i must, offer forgiveness, hope, and love, in every aspect of my life. whether at home, at work, or in a meetin with my fellows, i must remain willin to give without expectation of reward, to live without expectation of life, and be who i am without expectation of approval. its a simple choice today, do i want to live with resentment, futility, or unhappiness? or do i want to live with calmness, usefulness, and peace of mind? if i choose the latter, i have to be the one to initiate it any chance or opportunity i get, no matter where i am. life only happens one moment at a time. when i live right now as best i can, no matter the people im around, i have the opportunity to bring somethin to the occasion, rather than steal from it. it is the good life worth strivin for, the ability to give love wherever i am to whoever i can. its my belief that is how my HP would have me be. 1 day @ a time...