my daily reflections…

this thing we do teaches me how to change from bein the person i was while out doin my dirt, into a person who lives in sharp contrast to the self-centered, unrealistic, unbalanced, and undisciplined person i used to be. i am taught the character flaws i once did that i didnt even know i had and was doin. i am also taught of the shortcomins i never did because i didnt know how to do them and if i did, i thought they werent self-servin enough so i just didnt do em. recovery teaches me to use what i have learned about myself to help other alcoholics find a way toward healin their own handicaps and personal problems. what is taught to me without me even realizin it, is how to live amongst the world and my fellows usin what i have learned to help them whether they are in recovery or not. ive found that livin this design for livin, that ive been able to turn from an inwardly angry, baffled, frustrated, and self-righteous person into someone who has an inner happiness that cultivates peace of mind and ends the chaotic thought processes of self-pity i used to live in. whether or not i am able to actually help another, it is in my efforts to do so that i get to experience the joys mentioned prior. today i can trust my own motives without playin into martyrdom that allows me to get harmed. i get to be useful and effective to all whom enter my life. in wantin to keep what i have i must rely on the truths of the spiritual principles of recovery and the laws of nature whether human or natural. livin a healthy, balanced lifestyle isnt somethin that comes natural to me, so i shouldnt rely on all of the thoughts i have within. my HP will guide and direct me on how to be pragmatic and competent without returnin to self-servin attitudes and behaviors. when i await the right answers, without procrastination, prayin over a challenge, possibly discussin it with a trusted friend, a solution will appear. findin a way to identify with another, i am given the opportunity to be helpful, givin away what ive been blessed with. givin it away allows me to live as my HP would have me. though i may not know exactly what His will may be, i can still be helpful to those around me. today i get to spend my time with the familiar mishpocha of friends and family all around me, i am not alone any longer. i get to give to live. 1 day @ a time...