my daily reflections…

as time has gone by in my recovery, havin made the amends ive needed to, the dark past does not haunt me near as bad as it once did. it has taken time, perseverance, and patience, to move from the guilt, fear, and remorse, i once let cloud my mind. i aint tryina say i still dont get bothered by the shit i had done to others, cause there are times i do. alls im tryina convey here is that as ive practiced usin each of the 12 spiritual principles of recovery, ive been able to heal from the harms i used to do to others. it is truly about the brotherly love of step 8 that has helped me move forward away from the fears i used to let get to me. havin formed a good relationship with my HP and self, ive been gifted the ability to heal relationships with others. havin done this, today its not so difficult to tell the storys of my past and what i did to get past em. the other day i was invited to a treatment center locally to speak and have questions asked of me from the residents. i cannot express in words sufficient enough how i felt after spendin a few hours there showin and tellin what it was like, what happened, and what it is like today. as i watched the residents shed tears, as i seen the hope rise within em, as i offered them my story and inspirations, i could feel the effectiveness and usefulness recovery has taught me to live in. it was the willingness to offer a voice of hope, forgiveness, and love, while providin the show of true and honest emotion from within that i was able to make a connection with many of the residents. i was able to offer the key to life and happiness for others, and it made me feel thankful that i was able to live the gratitude recovery asks of me. not only did i offer hope to them, i lightened the burden of carryin the load of my story. with my HP and recovery, ive persevered to become someone i have never been before. the other day my HP let me see the wonderful mystery of life, even in the ordinary. i am grateful for the spiritual awakenin that this program gives me. i reckon once i clear a hurdle, it doesnt seem so high. choosin honesty allows me new growth each day. 1 day @ a time...