my daily reflections…

i have to remember all the rules i had set in place for others to live by while back in the days of doin my dirt. as i went through my 4th and 8th step inventorys i was amazed at the rules i made for people around me to remain in my life. hell man, they were rules and requirements on a scorecard i couldnt even live up to myself! just as the mile long lists this mornins daily spoke of, mine were also very exclusive. recovery has taught me that i need to be inclusive, not exclusive. its been my experience that when i am able to surrender, tolerate, and accept, i set myself up for success in adventure. the adventures i have not limited myself to while in recovery have provided me with experiences that have helped me to grow inwardly and spiritually. they have given me the ability to form better relationships with my HP, myself, and those who i probably would not have back in the days of doin my dirt. hell man, next weekend i am goin to a labor day weekend party at a good friends home who happens to be a cop! i would have never done that before my recovery began. learnin from the experience of others whove came in before me, like the history of this thing we do, provides me the proof i need to know and understand the changes i have lived because of the benefits of recovery. what a blessin! ive heard it said in the rooms that courage is the price that life exacts for grantin peace. today, i get to affirm courage in my life. when i remain rested and balanced, my recovery allows me to set in place levels of inclusivity that doesnt exclude me from livin life and givin myself the ability to experience it with freedom, wholly. ive been placed in a position of neutrality, safe and protected. neither cocky nor afraid. that has been my experience. it is how i react so long as i keep in fit spiritual condition. i reckon if i want to stay protected, i have to be connected so i may experience the solutions through each powerful step of recovery. i get to live to give while learnin the secret of abundant livin. 1 day @ a time...