my daily reflections…

sobriety is not enough for me. ive tried that method, and it didnt do anythin for me but get me drunk. ive learned through recovery that i didnt have anythin to replace alcohol when i tried just bein sober. all it did was drive me mad within. it increased the character defects and shorcomins i already had. in an effort to build a new life and not drink, recovery offered solutions that, when i was willin to do the work that provided the solution i sought, worked. i reckon in buildin a new life i had become truly honest and make each spiritual principle a part of my life. what i found replaced the alcohol was a relationship with my HP. today i must continue to do what recovery says will solve my personal problems. so, i do em. and would ya believe this, my life aint hopeless and unmanageable. i aint angry, i aint unhappy, and i aint useless. so, in my recoverin experience, sobriety aint enough, i have to do the things recovery suggests so i can remain sober. i aint gotta play the role of a martyr. the price of freedom for me means that i am learnin to detach spiritually to discover a pure and selfless love. as much of an enigma wrapped in a mystery my recovery may seem sometimes, the rewards i receive from simply doin the next right recovery solution, keeps me full of hope and provides me manageability. i dont have to hold the whip of my alcoholism over my head to continue to get the gifts recovery offers either. examinin my expectations allows me to celebrate my successes in recovery, in life. ive learned how to have sane boundaries and live with peace of mind within em. in buildin this new life ive come to learn that spiritual progress isnt what gets me sober, its what keeps me sober. i get to ride my spirituality on a beam; and when i do, everythins right. i just gotta do what doesnt come natural to me. what used to seem like common sense to me has thus become uncommon sense. 1 day @ a time...