my daily reflections…

sometimes i think i wish that after i had learned how to live the 12 spiritual principles of recovery i could have been done with it all and graduated. but that isnt how this thing we do works. what ive learned is that i must continue to live and practice the 12 steps, for the rest of my life. there is not one and done for me in my recovery. there is, however, a learnin process that continues as i develop and evolve. i reckon i didnt become 53 years old because i didnt grow. and so, it is with my recovery, i reckon i havent gotten days gone by since my recovery began, because im still growin in that area of my life too. usin the spiritual principles of surrender, tolerance, and acceptance, tied in with willingness, i get to continue to grow and progress spiritually, becomin better than yesterday. i get to call on the grace of God to calm me when i feel like retaliatin or quitin. when i look to God for the inner strength to drop those resentments that drag me down i get the opportunity to use each of the prior mentioned spiritual principles to grow and continue to recover and persevere in my long period of reconstruction. one of the miracles of reconstruction ive been able to learn how to live with is that i now believe in me. the belief that i still have more to learn and grow with allows me to be set free from self. i can rely upon the intuitive voice of reason my HP patiently speaks to me when im cultivated with peace of mind. i get to free myself from self so i may accept my disease and make choices based on my awareness of the freedoms i have today. much like other areas ive learned to live with, in my recovery, i get to believe in myself so that i may believe in others. i dont have to let the assets i already have be used and turned into defects because ive learned and use the concepts of structure, balance, and sanity. i understand that managin my own life is my only assignment today. just as back in the days of doin my dirt, if i always did what i had always done, i always got what i always got, the reconstruction of my life into a life of recovery, will always provide me with a life in recovery. 1 day @ a time...