my daily reflections…

havin some sort of idea today how to live a life in recovery without the bemoanin of my alcoholism in full swing, havin suppressed it as best as i can usin what recovery has shown and taught me, ive found that when i live all of the spiritual principles, i am free to live life as its meant. i could not do this today if i hadnt worked each step as best as my mind can comprehend or understand them. i had to start with step one and follow each step in their proper order. step 9s concept of justice has most def played a part in removin threats to what has been built in my recovery. without it i would not have been able to free myself further from the demons that hindered my emotions, behavior, and psyche. recovery has taught me that others in my life, before and after recovery deserve the same respect as i. in order for me to remove the threats to my sobriety i needed to follow through with this usin the humility, courage, and integrity i learned i had. i needed my HP and i needed my sponsor. i needed to understand that movin forward without either may have the potential to cause further harm and use the timin that my HP would give, with guidance from my sponsor. i didnt want to harm anybody again or cause them undue further harm. i wanted to remove threats to my sobriety too. it was explained that to make an amends in haste to save my own ass was wrong. it was not me i was tryin to help or show brotherly love, it was the ones i was gonna make the amends to that deserved their peace of mind. it was not my place to try to impose my will on those i was to make amends to. i am not "holier than thou”, nor do i have all the answers. i wasnt better than other good people whom i had harmed. all i could do then and do today is live the best way i can and allow others to do likewise. acceptin the necessary pressures that are in my life doesnt mean i force my will on another again. the time came, and it was right for each of the amends i had to make. today ive healed from them and so have the persons i had to make amends to. 1 day @ a time...