my daily reflections…

my recovery has to be placed as a high priority in my life today. second only to the relationship i have with God and my willingness to do as i perceive His will is, i cannot afford to let go of what i have worked so hard for. i dont want to go back to the days of desperation, anger, or pain that i remember all too well. perseverin in my program of recovery means that i give to recovery as much as i can while livin a balanced lifestyle. ya ever feel that shit in the pit of your belly that aint the big warm fuzzy? well i do, and when i do, its a sure indicator that i need to get my ass back into recovery and seek out the solutions for the way im feelin. when i am able to get out of self and share whats goin on with me, i get to give to recovery. sometimes, money or gifts are not the only way i can give to recovery. sometimes bein active in my own program of recovery is the best way i can give back. even when im seekin solutions for the problems i may be goin through. selfishness and self-centeredness, by keepin to myself the things that are hinderin my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual growth never helps me nor anybody else. cooperation, understandin, and companionship, are gifts i get to give to others when i share the dirt im feelin within. i aint got all the answers, even with years in recovery behind me. recovery has taught me that my HPs plans are not to be kept to myself, for me alone to deal with. freedom from my alcoholism comes when i throwback what i have into recovery, what ev it may be. livin in reality, in the now, givin what i can, when i can, whether its a bunch of self-pity or gleeful tidins from my HP, is what i can do to help me live the change recovery has taught me. i want to be a part of the solution today, not the problem, or pollution. alone i am the problem. together with others, i am part of the solution. if i have the courage to begin, i have the courage to succeed. though self-will may try to keep me stuck in the mire, as it frequently does, it will always respond the moment i again pick up the key to willingness and get out of self to live in recovery, with recovery, as i help recovery, whether mine or anothers, persevere. 1 day @ a time...