my daily reflections…

with the new state of consciousness ive been given as a result of this recovery program, i have been fortunate to live an actuality and reality that is in stark contrast to the way of life and presence i lived back in the days of doin my dirt. i often think back and consider much of the time spent back in those days as wasted. then i remember that those times were needed so i could finally be broken and learn a different way of life. i can imagine that if it werent for the solutions ive found in recovery, how i would just be livin in the consequence of regret. and to be honest, anguish wouldnt have provided a very suitable life. the gift of loneliness, anger, frustration, bewilderment, desperation, and fear, brought about a change that has enlightened me to somethin i may have had all along, just didnt realize i did. that was the ability to finally be able to see me, finally be able to understand that i am just as human as any other. that i wasnt one of the lucky ones born into fame and fortune in the material sense, but rather, born into simplicity and individuality. today the success i find is in bein human, havin to work for what i receive. as i focus on developin the talents i have, what i enjoy, and what truly interests me, that passion for life today, that doesnt provide the material shit i wish i had, i find a growth within of peace and serenity. i like me today, fuck mannn, i love me today! the imp inside me wants to keep this new person within all to myself, however, recovery has taught me to share this gift. it is somethin ive learned i must give away so i may continue to receive. as i continue the self-care recovery offers me, sharin it with others as i walk my journey with my HP, believin the consciousness ive been gifted through spiritual awareness, my past character defects and shortcomins are shed to the wayside allowin me to be at peace within so i can grow and fortify the good ones. my priorities today are not what they used to be, today God, recovery, and service to others bring about my new consciousness. 1 day @ a time...