my daily reflections…

i feel like the best way for me to show the thankfulness i feel within is to live with a demeanor and position of gratitude for the gifts i receive every day. important to my success in recovery is the way i start my day each mornin. when i start it with daily inspirational readins, prayer, and meditation, i get to start it bein at peace with life. before anythin can interrupt me, lettin self, try to guide me, the togetherness i share with my HP is already set, so i dont have the likelihood of other shit goin on around me start to direct or guide my attention. why live life, why start my day, full of anger and frustration? thats the kinda shit i used to do, today is different, today is a gift. this mornin is Christmas, ive been given, long before i was ever born, a freedom i chose to ignore back in the days of doin my dirt. i aint gonna let the liberty i have today be used against me, by livin self-will, get disrupted anymore; i have a responsibility to self, those around me, recovery, and my HP, to use what i have learned to make the world around me a better place. i have a friend in recovery that says he gets “bonus days” every day he awakens since his recovery began. well, as it is, so do i. i can give the emotion of thankfulness by livin the action of gratitude, just as my friend does his “bonus days”. i get to live today with a spiritual power that can be vulnerable. it can live with confusion. it can stand alone. it allows others to walk away to pursue their own happiness. the spiritual power i get to live exists in sufferin and loneliness and does not expect perfection. today my recovery is teachin me to live and let others live, too. my freedom, again, given to me before i was even born, must respect the freedom of others. livin at peace with life means i get to live with a child-like heart. i can let it beat within me as strongly as it ever did! an attitude of unhealthy and unbalanced limitation is the only thing that can stop me. i havent given up, therefore, the miracle of the spiritual experience is still happenin within me and around me. by Gods grace, i am livin the change to improve my nature. Merry Christmas!!! 1 day @ a time...