my daily reflections…

yesterday was a good day! as i get to live this mornin in reflection, i didnt have to force my will into what the day brought, it was a day filled with forgiveness, hope, and love. i was able to use the spiritual principles recovery has taught me to overcome, accept, and adjust, to what the day offered without fear, despair, pride, and self-doubt. remainin humble, my HP provided me a family so i could be a part of somethin. i was able to live the day feelin what Christmas is all about. as the durable and steadfast love flowed around me, i was able to sense and watch people around me i barely knew, live, laugh, and love, without the chaotic pressures Christmases of the past brought me. the peace felt within as i laughed and joked, shared intimate moments, and sometimes tragic events, were dealt with in a way where i was able to bring somethin to the events i shared in. i was able to practice courage, matched with serenity, passin on a confidence that shined all around me. it was a perfect day of livin what Christmas is all about. nobody around me was in recovery, and drinks poured. but yet i was able to feel useful, with a reason for livin, a purpose in life. i was relaxed and of service, feelin the presence of my HP, as He surrounded and protected me, takin away every fear and thought of self-consciousness. i lived my life doin the best i could, without a feelin of urgency or strain. i enjoyed all the good things and the beauty of life. i got to feel what ive lived in the rooms, how love is a force. it wasnt a result; it was a cause. it wasnt a product; it produced. it had all the power. it wasnt valueless because i let it live around me. it was God, my HP, showin himself throughout my day. i realize this mornin just how blessed i am even though the day didnt go as i may have wanted it to. i got to be a part of life. as i write this this mornin, i realize every day is a gift-givin holiday, if i will but make it so. the extravagant promises recovery speaks of were the present i have sought all my life and could never find. if i self-forget, i find. when i learn to change, i change to learn. my life has taken on new meanin, my life hereafter is from this moment on. i get to let life live, so i can live life. 1 day @ a time...