my daily reflections…

there is most def somethin to be said for livin and practicin the spiritual principles of recovery. before i came into recovery and started livin a life i had never lived before, i had the thought that livin by the rules, suggestions, or dictates of another would not be fun or create a life worth livin. i had to make my own rules and live by the ideas, morals, virtues, and concepts, i created. i thought bein a rebel was cool mannn. i thought bein my own person would be somethin that provided a life worth celebratin. really needless to say, fuck was i ever wrong! fightin and goin against every grain i seen only proved to me, later in recovery, just how self-centered and self-righteous i had always been. i could never hear people around me tell me just how selfish i was. today ive learned how humblin myself, livin by rules or the suggestion of another, does provide a life worth livin. i dont have to constrain myself to self-willed rules, ideas, morals, virtues, and concepts. i get to remain bein my own person, adaptin and conditionin a way of life that doesnt have to fight anythin or anyone, even alcohol. openin my mind to ideas and concepts of others, experiencin the joy of livin the spiritual principles of recovery sometimes can be very difficult, but as ive learned over the years, it is far less stressful than tryin to create a life by sheer force. my life is balanced, full of power, and manageable. i get to work with prayer and pray without work. ive prepared a bearable ground for my HPs Spirit and recoverys guidance to enter my life. unconditional, forgiveness, hope, and love, have become a part of my daily livin, makin me a rebel against my old way of livin. as i trust God, clean house, help others, and hold on, the endless possibilities exist and grow my horizons. turns out, with the joy of livin the theme of the 12th step, i do get to make decisions that let me live a life worth celebratin. i have a wealth of kith within the fellowship so loneliness doesnt stand a chance of keepin me separated any longer. 1 day @ a time...