my daily reflections…

in livin the principles, if i want to receive anythin from what recovery says they have to offer, i must get out of self, humblin myself so i may share my experience, my strengths, and my hopes. in this effort, bein as honest as i can, i must acknowledge my HP, admittin that my efforts alone can avail me nothin but the misery and sufferin i came to know so well while out doin my dirt. in my early recovery it was important that i get involved in my own recovery, diggin deep within to utilize what the 12 steps offered. i needed to find out what within me made me the alcoholic that i became. i needed to learn how to overcome those characters and behaviors i found through inventory usin what the principles offered. i couldnt do it alone, as mentioned, i needed my HP and even those within the fellowship to help guide me. i had to surrender and learn to accept me for me. lemme tell ya, that shit wasnt easy. havin found all of what the steps had to offer; it was time for me to begin usin the traditions as i began interactin with others in my daily life. again, diggin deep within so as not to harm another or myself, and if i did, recognize it, take the appropriate actions to amend my mistakes, and continue forward leanin on faith in my HP and recovery. honesty, courage, and humility helped to build integrity as i tried to share the love i had been unconditionally given. even just startin out in early recovery, i learned later, i was helpin others. and today, as i live the change i talk about with behaviors and actions that hold my words and self, accountable, i get to remained involved in not only my own recovery, but those i interact with, whether they are in recovery or not. still today, its not always goin to be clear that God is "leadin me." im not always goin to hear the call or feel the pull. but today, i need to live in reality and intuitively know when its time to move and when its time to rest. when i put my mistakes behind me and ask God to bring out the good, i get to learn and grow. i get to remain faithfully involved knowin my brain has cleared with the grace of clarity. 1 day @ a time...