my daily reflections…

i recall how faith came harder for me. i know i may have had it as a young un, but i turned by back on God late in my teens, cause i thought i knew better. throughout my 20s & early 30s, faith had turned from me to whiskey, from whiskey to me, and back to whiskey. and thats how life went. if i couldnt do for me what i wanted, whiskey surely could. and it worked, until it stopped. comin into the rooms i had to gain hope somehow. i could hear the storys bein told by those who came in before me that they had faith in their hp and could even tell storys of how faith had helped them. i didnt know then if it would work for me. i had removed alcohol from my life and i was feelin it. i had to develop some kind of faith and needed to be shown how to do it. over the years of my recovery, as ive practiced what ive learned, i have been able to grow faith in somethin greater than i. today i use that hope from days gone by to further the fait i have. ive heard it said that faith without works is dead, so in order for me to continue to nurture that faith i have, i must remain an active participant in my recovery. this means that i continue to practice the spiritual principles, even when i dont want to or feel like it. i mean, what is the worth of my recovery if i dont use hope that builds toward faith? the hope and faith i have today are essential to emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual health and balance. self-respect, honesty, and humility, are each helpful in their own particular ways toward helpin the faith i have to grow. self-respect helps me to understand that i can have faith and use self-love without makin it unhealthy, turnin me back into my HP. honesty helps me believe in the path ive walked, and how it can help me help myself and others. and humility helps me see that i alone cannot live life without the help of God or others. today, with hope that leads to faith, i get to be a part of, rather than apart from. its simple today, i cant, but when i use hope and faith, He can. 1 day @ a time...