my daily reflections…

i cannot tell ya that at all times im inspired to do well or the best i can. currently ive made the decision to make a move geographically that is far away from any comfort zone ive ever known. the only thing that ive found here, 850 miles away, that i could call anythin that are like the places i call home, is recovery. yes, its here, and im so grateful for it today. as i sit here this mornin writin this personal daily reflection, the feelins this mornins daily reflection speak of are alive and well within. fear is most def not eludin me, it is surroundin me, tryin to get me to let go and let joel. compulsion is beggin me to seek comfort in any way i can. and phony aspirations are tryin to convince me to not follow the intuitive voice within. yes, the savagely violent and repugnant mr hyde within, is beggin me to show my ass. but ya know, i didnt move down here to go back to a life i left 17 years ago, i came down here to continue a life i started over 16 1/2 years ago. so thats what im gonna do. i aint gotta let mr hyde have his way with me, instead im gonna show the troglodytic and barbarous side of me just how the intuitive voice within, the spiritual principles of recovery ive refined over the years, can overcome my most basic and human emotions, or wants. im gonna be thankful to God that i feel well and happy instead of sick and disgusted. how serenity and inner happiness have become much more important to me than the excitement of fear, compulsions, and phony aspirations, which may lift me up for a short while, but lets me way down in the end. im gonna rely on my HP. im gonna trust Him to the limit. im gonna depend on the divine power of my HP to guide me in all my human relationships and interactions today. im gonna wait and trust and hope, until God shows me the way with guidance on each important decision. i aint gotta be perfect, i just gotta do what i perceive is the next right thing. i will seek discipline, direction, and strength from God while movin toward my goals today. i wont argue so i may see and feel. i wont fight mr hyde, instead, i will practice the rest of the programs principles as enthusiastically as i can. 1 day @ a time...