my daily reflections…

ive heard it in the rooms and have lived to tell, since my recovery began, faith overcomes fear. and even as i have practiced faith when fear strikes me throughout my recovery, fear still has a way of creepin its way back into my life. as i think about this this mornin, havin read one of the key ingredients to fear in this mornins daily reflections, self-reliance, i think of how ive worked and lived my recovery to this point. i reckon its Gods way of remindin me that i aint as perfect as i like to think i am. or maybe its Gods way of remindin me im human. idk, but what ev it is His ass is doin, i still get full of self-reliance and set myself up for the fear that follows. and to be honest, it is the fear of self-reliance that often makes me remember that faith in His power is what i need to practice, but only after i have dragged myself through the mire of fear itself. i remember a friend of mine in recovery tellin me in a meetin that i cannot rely too much on what i may have done yesterday to keep me sober and in recovery today. now surely i can use my experience, knowledge, and wisdom to help guide me, but as i grow in recovery, i evolve, i change, and the things that may have worked yesterday may not work today. so, God allows me new experiences so i may learn to overcome them usin new and different ways to use what i have already learned. i reckon ya could call that shit blessins, ikr? today i am trustin the urge to move ahead ... to grow ... to risk new directions. i am openin myself up to vulnerability so i may learn more about myself. i will get to learn to listen solidly to the voice within and follow only the path of joy He lays out for me. all i have to do to continue the hope i have matured is continue to cultivate faith. and that means lettin loose of the self-reliance that always grows fear. when i count my blessins, my whole outlook on life turns around. hope, encouragement, faith, love, and patience, provide me with all the help i need. 1 day @ a time...