my daily reflections…

i have learned in recovery what the difference between thankfulness and gratitude is. it is my understandin that thankfulness is an emotion and gratitude is an action. with the inventorys ive done since my recovery began ive learned much about myself. ive tried to place thankfulness and gratitude in their places throughout my story as i perceive their meanins to be. its helped me to better understand their definitions as they pertain to me. and it seems that thankfulness is a direct result of gratitude. it fits like this for me because i understand that to change my thinkin, i must first change my behavior. with a change in action i can affect the way i think. when i get out of self, helpin others, doin sometimes simple things, i begin to think and have thought processes that are geared away from my natural, alcoholic, self-centeredness. this has had a healthy influence on what is in my mind as i process thoughts. unhealthy emotions like conceit, resentment, anger, guilt, and fear, arent so much at the forefront of my mind. humility, friendliness, calmness, happiness, and assurance become the catalyst for the love i must try to live and practice so that gratitude becomes an asset that infiltrates my every attitude and conduct. and ive experienced through recovery, through the action and behavior of gratitude, a transformation, or adjustment to how i process the thoughts that roam through my mind. it has an impact on how i treat those who enter into my life daily. i feel like it makes them feel important to me, freein myself from the egotistical narcissist i have the great potential to be. as i remain committed to my recovery, this change of thinkin and thought has provided me a pathway to live the change my HP and recovery ask of me. it has required willingness, perseverance, and discipline, one baby step forward at a time. today i get to make a special effort to give honest and lovin attention to those who are difficult for me to love, even self, so i dont have to live the conceit of little men. delay is dangerous, and rebellion may be fatal. fortunately, recovery enhances everythin good for me in my life. 1 day @ a time...