my daily reflections…

there is a challenge to failure for me. when in the past i would chalk it up to just bad luck and go to gettin the poor me’s, today, even as failure does strike my humility makin me feel it within, after healthy thought, i get the opportunity to let loose of ego and make them lessons to learn from. how often in the past did i curse the happenins in my life that didnt go the way i wanted em to? when my self-indulged and self-centered hopes would be dashed, i couldnt use them for lessons, i could only buy an express one-way first-class ticket on the blame train to anger and self-pity. the thought of lookin within to see where i may have possibly been the one that created the mess in the first place, were far from any reality i had. it was always someone or somethin else, not me. and if i did learn from it, it only taught me to dig further within and waste time tryin to over, or outthink, the result of my biddin. so, here i am today, in recovery, havin learned how to use the personal inventory it teaches to honestly look within to see exactly where, or what, my character is that may have been effected so i may grow a healthy hope of overcomin em. then it teaches me to pick out those characters or shortcomins to dissect them, sharin em with another, and askin God to help me overcome them so i may become a person with healthy integrity. i get to use step 2 and tradition 2s concept of hope to see how my HP can help me overcome the failures in my moment or day. sometimes, the things that happen in my life arent my fault, i get to learn, usin recovery, how i can use the spiritual principles to tolerate, surrender, and accept em, so i may move forward with my days activities that are far more important. failure is gonna happen, its how i treat the world around me, and self, when it happens that tell the tale of who and what i am today. instead of bein a festerin pimple on the ass of humanity, i get to be a part of the cure for the ills of the world, livin my share in makin a better world. genuine beginnins begin within me, even when they are brought to my attention by external opportunities. all i have to do is listen for my HPs message. 1 day @ a time...