my daily reflections…

it has been my experience that when i remain disciplined toward livin the change recovery offers me, i must continually remind myself that im not the one runnin the show today. when i forget this simple idea i set myself up for undue excitement, fear, anger, worry, resentment, self-pity, and foolish decisions. one of the goals in my recovery is to become more efficient, less likely to burn spiritual energy foolishly as when i did when i tried to arrange my life, and the world around me, to my likin. i need my HP to show me, each moment, that this thing we do, really works, and i can only do that when i remain disciplined, followin the spiritual principles of recovery. faith is an asset in my life. it helps provide me the hope that i can become, and be, as the person i described, less likely to burn time each moment on what i think should be. i have done the works recovery has suggested and have lived to experience the return from those faithful works. it works, when i cannot. with this in mind, i must continue to do what is necessary to live the change. when i pause, breathe, and pray, doin the next right thing, then repeat, i get to sit back and watch my HP do the jobs i cannot. as my HPs spirit grows within me, i get to feel His workin within, changin my thinkin as i enact the actions and behaviors im guided toward. by doin these simple things ive noticed my hopelessness wain because i have freedom of choice today, somethin i lost, but am regainin slowly. though one part of me will always want to do things the old, sick way, im gettin stronger every day. my spirit wants to learn new ways so i can be honest and lovin. sometimes, i dont know how or why, but my HP shows me when i ask. as i listen to the little voice inside that helps me see that i have choices, i get to make a choice between old ways and new ways of actin. ive learned im in no greater peril than when i take sobriety, or recovery, for granted. ive also experienced that spiritual progress isnt what gets me sober, its what keeps me sober. i must always remain spiritually aware, on the beam of His guidance. faith and recovery work, when i work it. 1 day @ a time...