my daily reflections…

it is an effort to use the healin recovery offers to overcome my self-will. it is an ongoin endeavor to persevere over the most deeply engrained characters i possess. if i want to rid myself of selfishness, anger, self-pity, hatred, corruption, and old attitudes, i have to give up old hangouts, old friends, old behaviors, and ideas. i must start relyin on what the spiritual principles of recovery teach me by practicin new habits, for example, kindness, love, and honesty, on which this thing we do is based. im not so self-indulged and forgetful that i have obliterated what brought me to recovery from my mind. in overcomin self-will i must use the concepts of honesty, open-mindedness, hope, surrender, acceptance, willingness, and most importantly, faith. i cannot overcome my alcoholism or alcohol without some sort of trust in things other than self. even today with several years of recovery behind me, the character attributes i mentioned prior can elude me if i go to lettin go and lettin joel. however, when i realize i have done this, isnt it a show of the program workin in my life to supplant those character defects mentioned with the character assets mentioned usin faith as a basis for healin me? as i keep tryin to grow, with honesty, hope, and faith, i get to see signs of my growth in the new life i get to continue to live. the old habits i have become so accustomed to are turned into a new common sense, allowin me an experience that leaves me excited and awestruck at times. my surrender, acceptance, and tolerance of self and of others, regardless of my want to turn shit my way, lead to understandin how faith in my HP is a force within that helps me to overcome my self-will. today, with an unshakable foundation and spiritual awareness, creatin a direct linkage to self-examination, meditation, and prayer, i get to pray over the things that i used to drink over. 1 day @ a time...