my daily reflections…

i cannot live today without the spiritual connection i have with my HP. i need it for daily, and most importantly, momentary peace of mind and serenity. i still get in my own way today and let outside forces guide my inside emotions. these are times i need Him to guide me. i have to reach out and ask Him for guidance and direction. and sometimes when im so blocked i cannot sense His intuitive word, i have to go to those around me so He may speak to me through them. it works for me, idk how any other may feel about prayer, but i do know that when i do it, it can have a sensation of release that frees me from the turmoil i alone create within. prayer boils down to true honesty about the humility i must have when realizin the control i genuinely do not have. it helps me to understand that i need hope & faith to overcome the shit in my surroundins, most importantly, my own instinctive need to want to manage the unmanageability in my life. prayer helps me understand & accept the powerlessness that i have in a majority of my life. when i connect to the presence of God in my life, i get to enjoy the freedom it provides me so i may try to concentrate on the things that recovery instructs me are most important. the relationship i keep with my HP helps me to always treat pride with respect and be mindful of its destructive attribute. i aint gotta experience the negative side of pride that makes me an arrogant fool. instead, i get to experience the creative sides of pride that allow me to be proud of the achievements in my life, helpin me discover the "power" prayer gives me. prayer is an avenue to help me ask forgiveness of my HP, others, and self, helpin me to admit my mistakes, and removes my fear of doin so. it opens me up to the instincts that rampage and balk at investigation. it helps me to have the courage and strength to actively change my behavior, attitude, thinkin, & habits, when nothin else works. 1 day @ a time...