my daily reflections…

each day i get to live in the reality of my life. recovery has given me the ability to do this. i get to live on a material plane while tryin to function on a spiritual plane. actively operatin on a spiritual plane as well as on a material plane makes life for me, what it should be today. when in the past all material activities i thought were advantageous to me in some way, recovery taught me only its materialistic value could make me happy on the outside, never quenchin the thirst i had within. in recovery, they seem valueless in themselves alone without applyin a spiritual aspect to em. ive learned in my recovery that all of those times in the days of doin my dirt, livin in self, workin toward whatever would try to fix the chaos within, as trivial as the toil was, were needed for my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual growth today. today i understand they were directed by Gods guidance. i had to live through the days of economic and material insecurity, thrivin in each to make life seem worthy to me. today, i dont have to live in the old patterns of behavior of havin all or nothin. today i understand that i wont ever become completely free from fear, anger, and pride. so, i must learn to live with a balance between material and spiritual well bein. recovery has taught me that i will never attain perfect humility and love. but it doesnt mean i have to settle for one or the other. i can learn to have respect for most of my problems, punctuated sometimes by heavy setbacks. its my goal today to live with both material and spiritual progress interwound, rather than material or spiritual perfection. i get to live through each expectin that out of the tough times of life come a renewed life, recovery, and resurrection. as long as i stay sober, everythin will work out as it should. my focus needs to be on the present moment and how i treat the world around me. it is with faith and with Gods help and recovery i can stay sober today. i can live feelin deeply secure in the fundamental goodness and purpose in His will, surrenderin, acceptin, and toleratin, setbacks and periods of growth in each my material and spiritual life. 1 day @ a time...