my daily reflections…

my HP has given me the ability to act and think by my own propulsion. He made me with the ability to feel emotions and even react to them in any way i choose. He also gave me the ability to remain active or passive in any situation i may find myself in. i get to make choices and it is my responsibility today to make decisions followed through with either, action, or no action, in the opportunities presented. its been my experience that not makin a choice, is a choice; not takin an action, is an action. so, with my recovery always in the forefront of my mind, i get to use what ive learned through recovery to make decisions and act when needed. today, when makin decisions i tend to make them without knowledge of what the action i take will bring. it is here where i have got to use the faith recovery has taught me to have, havin trust that my HPs will, will be a guidin direction for me. i get to use the experiences ive had, before my recovery began, and after it began, to decide and follow through with my choice. they are actions that consider my perception of the power of my HP in my life. sometimes, i find myself defendin or tryin to prove my point, its then i find that i am in the process of learnin to trust my own truth. i get to learn and understand how when it feels right inside, i am seein that it is all i need. again, i may not know the outcome, and it may be a risk, but i am learnin to trust my HP, others, and most importantly, myself. ive also found that i burn more energy not facin whats right in front of me sometimes. thats wasted time and energy all due to self-centered fear and procrastination. do i want to be happy or do i want to be right? i wasnt made to be nonresponsive. today, i am proud of the ways in which others trust me, and the ways i trust myself and my HP. ive learned im not what i think or feel, i am what i do. active trust in myself, in others, in my recovery program, and in my HP, help me to be the person i am today. with perseverance, when i focus on the right motives, im less apt to suffer. my negative mind will never bring a positive behavior. 1 day @ a time...