my daily reflections…

what a blessin the long form of trad 3 offers. in my opinion, it is the essence of the definition of equality. it lets me know that i can accept my alcoholism for what it is with an understandin that there are others in the world who may be just like me. it lets me appreciate that i dont have to live into anybody elses idea or concept of what makes me an alcoholic because i, alone, made the declaration. how many times in the past did i try to be someone i wasnt for the benefit of another? it helps me in relatin to others on identifyin how theyre alcoholism and the way they may live theyre recovery can help me because we have no other social classification or distinction other than the fact that we are alcoholics. i can then work with them, buildin relationships based on honesty and trust so i may work toward a solution that may be difficult for myself, alone, to live. it makes me equal to them, and them equal to me, without me tryin to separate them, or myself, makin them better or worse than i. how many times in the past did i try to do just that? i get to live a more abundant life as a result of the things equality bring me. i get to learn how to have more faith, discipline, and obedience toward a common sense that becomes an uncommon sense. it opens me up to a world i once rejected because of self-centered fear. i can recall the years i tried to control everythin and everybody. there was a correct code of behavior, and everythin had its place. i felt responsible for the universe and everyone in it. today i can laugh at my mistakes and the mistakes of others. when i catch myself organizin the world, i remember where the "perfect" yesterdays got me, and i laugh. i am no longer a boy whistlin in the dark, i can surrender, accept, and tolerate my imperfections, and others too. my eyes have been opened to the intricate beauty in all who are around me. i get to live with greater clarity and love. i get to live a heightened awareness. resentment has lessened. the barriers that kept me separated from the world around me have mysteriously disappeared. equality, just as my recovery, is an action. today i am committed to fully invest myself in life and hope. yes, equality. 1 day @ a time...