my daily reflections…

recovery has taught me that i am to be of service to others whenever possible, and sometimes, in uncomfortable situations. i have learned that i am to offer what i have to others rather than think or feel i have nothin anybody wants or needs. i have learned i may be the only big book another may experience. this means i must be ready to offer what i have been so freely given when to do so will not harm another or myself. though this mornins readin reflects tradition 2, it still takes, for me, the idea of tradition 3 to fully commit to service toward others. tradition 3 allows the seedlins of tradition 2 to persist in carryin me through the rest of the traditions. i learn to give up my ego, my false sense of pride, in order to build relationships with others usin humility that are sustainin for my recovery and hopefully helpful to others. and even if others may not ever benefit from what ive done, i know within i tried to do what ive perceived my HPs will is for me; this alone provides me with a sense of accomplishment in my own program of recovery. i get to be of service today understandin the privilege of doin somethin i may never have done back in the selfish days of doin my dirt. it provides me a secret place of peace, where i may live my inner life with God. i get to experience the confidence and strength recovery helps me to build within. in the days of doin my dirt, before my recovery began, i merely existed in life, but i did not live. i missed people, friendships, feelins, nature, and God. today i continue to make a spiritual choice that avoids alcohol. i am now able to feel again. i am alive. i get to be a person ive never been before, experiencin the gifts service toward others and humility provides me. i learn to swallow the intellectual pride that used to always keep me separated and alone from my fellows. ive gone through a period of life where ive swallowed a knowledge of myself and ive chosen to let it become a good thing rather than let it turn me sour inside as ive done in the past. i get to let each day offer me a fresh start at assimilatin all that ive been so i may let go of shame and know instead, that service sweetens the nuggets of the wisdom i can offer to others. if i want to remain free, i must remain willin, honest, & open-minded, to who gives me my strength. 1 day @ a time...