my daily reflections…

how many times before my recovery began did i just settle for what ev was right in front of me, curin my want, instead of takin care of what i truly needed. i can count many, but i aint tryina go down the road of unnecessary martyrdom or self-pity this mornin. ive already taken care of that kinda shit my alcoholism begs me to dig back into. what i get to share this mornin is how i can move forward in my recovery usin patience and perseverance. i get to use the experiences ive had as knowledge that enforces positive wisdom on how to move forward in my own recovery. i get to share what ive learned about myself in an attempt to help another. i get to strive for the better outcome, sometimes acceptin current circumstances, because i dont have the capacity, at the time, to move forward. my HP does shit for me, gives me things, right in front of me, to use for further growth or embolden the recovery i already possess. sometimes, the easy, gets in my way of achievin the best. i can recall, early in my recovery how my alcoholism begged me to take another drink, instead of face myself. guess what? the easy, the unhealthy good, didnt become the enemy of the best. i was patient, i persevered. sometimes, my recovery expects me to go the extra mile, take the next step, so i can evolve and grow forward. sometimes my HP lets me rest, so i can gain the courage and strength He has, so i can move forward when i am ready emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually. it is important for my recovery that i discern what is best, sometimes it is important to move forward blindly usin hope and faith. both step 3 and tradition 3 help me in my recovery, i just have to use em. i get to let God be the judge of the real me, i get to not be upset by the judgment of others when im conflicted in my personal journey of recovery. i get to pray for the courage to confront the ignorance in my life. i get to look forward to every experience today, knowin that God is givin me what i need. i get to experience lifes steady drizzle of small things, carryin the umbrella, of faith and recovery. i get to face all, intuitively trustin Him. 1 day @ a time...