my daily reflections…

when in da past it may have been difficult to share the shit i went through in my days before recovery with any humility, today i can share a majority of it with others. though i may still be inhibited by guilt, shame, and remorse, by sharin my story with others like me, ive learned, it helps me heal and be free from the damage i created for myself and others. with a sense of humility, integrity, self-confidence, self-responsibility, and courage, i get to tell a story that may seem self-contradictory or absurd but in reality, expresses an honest self-truth. just as this thing we do was gifted to me, handed down from my sponsor and others, i too get to pass it along through my story. my personal struggle with self, sufferin through a disease that damn near killed me and is still workin to live out its destiny, how a brief moment of clarity led me toward a solution that worked and how that solution is lived today as it continues to affect my life, is somethin which may help another, and most def helps me. the sufferin i went through, and the recovery from my fatal disease, is a gift. it is somethin i cannot keep to myself; i must not let my ego or pride keep me from passin on the gift of recovery. after ive expressed how my disease affected me, i get to share how this thing we do is a program of faith because ive learned i must have faith in a Power greater than myself if im gonna remain sober and in recovery. i get to share how im helpless before alcohol, but when i turn my drink problem over to my HP and have faith that He can give me all the strength i need, i then get to experience a lifestyle without my unhealthy cripplin characters and shortcomins. i get to share the promise of spiritual growth, a spark of the Divine in me that is a life full of glad promise. how such blessins, joys, and wonders, can be lived as i continue to develop in the sunshine of my HPs love. i get to share how in the spaces of my love for others and self, there is spiritual experience in emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual growth. when i contribute to life i get to continue livin; i get to experience the wonderful collection of invitations which await me today. i get to understand the great paradox and how clear vision for tomorrow comes only after a real look and tell of yesterday. 1 day @ a time...