my daily reflections…

it has been my experience that when i slight serious prayer and meditation, i suffer; that shit dont feel good man. i aint tryna go back to the days of doin my dirt. if i want to continue enjoyin the satisfactions of dealin with the realities of life, enhancin my spiritual condition, self-examination, prayer, and meditation must remain necessary practices in the daily maintenance of my personal program of recovery. as a result of a new way of livin, i have found that when i take personal inventory actin accordingly to what ive learned from this thing we do, lookin for and findin the ways within which make me selfish, i get the opportunity to overcome self askin my HP to help me relieve myself of the character and shortcomins i may find. i then listen for His intuitive voice of reason and direction as to how i need to move forward to resolve my attitudes and personal problems. with His rightful insight, takin the higher view, my spiritual awareness is heightened and i become nearer and dearer to what i perceive my HP would have me be. the false values i tend to feel the need to live with, which my ego begs of me, fade as humility flows through me and i move forward to live as He instructs. if i want a better life, i must be prepared to remember the past, forgive others and myself, and live with a willful and obstinate effort to live affirmin my correspondence with Him. with the contentment i feel within from prayer and meditation, i am grateful for a new way of life i can rely on. usin every ounce of the weight of the guilt, shame, and fear my alcoholism has already caused me i get to shore up my motivation to not live that way of life again, good Lord willin. prayer and meditation are the method that provides the arrangement and mechanism to change and improve my natures. with the further direction and instruction i learn from the big book, i get to find how spiritual awareness grows my spiritual condition and experience. today, its the simple personal organization and responsibility of these practices that i am happy, joyous, and free. 1 day @ a time...