my daily reflections…

recovery has taught me i cannot live life in chunks of time. i cannot relive my past nor can i prelive my future. i can repair my past with future livin, but i can only do that by livin this moment, this day, as best as i can utilizin the wisdom i have gained through livin my life before and after recovery. by livin life one day at a time, i get the opportunity to clear up the wreckage of my past because im movin away from times i ran life on self-will. i also get to create a better future for myself because im not stirrin the shit storm of chaos, but instead settin myself up for success. if i ever thought people watched what i was doin in the past, by livin my best life today, people really take notice. whether they are usin what im doin to cut me later or usin what i may be doin to help themselves, others notice what im doin, how im livin. what they do with their perception is none of my business, and my hope is that they get somethin good outta what ev it is im doin. in the past when i lived solely on self-will, i never got to live in the moment unless i was drunk. i was always too busy tryin to relive my past into somethin better or tryin to prelive my future, never focusin on what was right in front of me, today. when i live in the moment, in the current day, i get to witness Gods work around me. im not so involved in what others are doin, did, or what they are gonna do. my focus, my action, and my thought are placed on tryin to live my HPs will. i get to win the real victory over myself. i aint gotta live by a principle of prejudice with a halo. i can be who i am and live comfortably in doin so. each day provides its own gifts when i pay attention to them. each day life is full of wonderful gifts. recovery is lifes greatest gift to me. why waste it worryin about yesterday or tomorrow. i deserve the gift of ODAAT because im human. life begins at the end of my comfort zones. when i live ODAAT, remainin vulnerable, i get to experience life as i never thought possible before. when im into self in healthy, balanced, sane ways, i get to discover healthy, balanced, and sane motives. 1 day @ a time...