my daily reflections…

i wish i would have been able to practice a spiritual lifestyle before my recovery. i reckon i had an opportunity as a young un but was taken over by emotions that were the seeds of character defects and shortcomins which later blossomed, grew, and evolved, as i grew into a teenager, and later into young adulthood. when i came into the rooms i began a process of learnin how to use the spiritual principles of recovery. much of what i was learnin had been taught to me as a youth, and much of what i was bein taught through recovery, rekindled the ideas from my youth. all i had to do in my early recovery was set aside my prejudice toward religion and work toward the spirituality religion had offered. it was found within the programs steps and trads. when i did that i began to grow in areas of my life i didnt ever think was possible. the spiritual malady and confusion religion had given me in my youth became understood and i was able to start livin the change. as i began to practice spiritual principles i could sense a change occurrin within. i began to straighten out mentally and physically. for certain stoppin the drinkin was essential, the way the step work i was doin in my early recovery started a change, has expounded as spirituality has grown within affectin how i behave and think today. i no longer take for granted friends, vacations, job satisfaction, gratitude, family, communication, and love of self. the aspect of my disease which caused so many problems has turned into an inner happiness. i no longer suffer from the loneliness and isolation which used to plague me. i missed so much in the days of doin my dirt! today i get to live life, not endure life, the choice is mine. my spiritual recovery means every day i get to reach out to life and grasp it, hold it, smell it, and smile. as i humbly leave the outcome of my actions to God, i aint gotta divide the world into the people i hate and the people who hate me. spiritual health means i never have to be alone again. by stayin sober, actively practicin spiritual principles, ive gradually dissolved the walls id built around myself. from a willingness to learn and live, the blessin of spiritual health has given me gratitude which has become a most effective painkiller for me. today i enjoy my sober, recoverin, spiritually aware and healthy, life. 1 day @ a time...